Toxic

I think that there is a big differences between people who force you to be with them just because they have free time and nothing else to do, and people who make a schedule specially to meet you.
In fact, i oftenly have lots of, lots of uninvited guests.
If, for example, they make a plan and the plan didn't work, then they will contact me--and without my agreement, visit my home. Innocently appear, they would say.
I dont need a forcely-relation like this.
I dont need toxic people.
People who makes me almost blown my own mind, or people who make me have trouble sleeping just because im thinking too much about what they say, or people that put me into their second option.
Or people who thinks that they are superior enough to tell me what to do and whatnot.
I dont need toxic people.
I dont.

Crumble

In case if you wondering of why you are so hard to handle, probably because you are an absolute piece of mess.

Fire and Some Verses

"Don't set yourself on fire to keep others warm. Some people didn't need your fire and will still love you anyway."

Another Wave From You

Usually, my nights contains nightmares and bad dreams.
But there was one night that i dreamed about a very normal--or you can say--a pretty neat dream.
If you ever watch a cheap soap opera, i guess that was how it would looks like.
In the dream, it all began on winter, when i was buying some breads at the train station and walking--not sure where. I got up into a train.
And i saw you on the train hallway.
As if this is an usual thing to see, you called my name, and the first question that you've ever asked is, "Do you have a blazer or an outer black suit? I'll have this college presentation at 1 P.M, i forgot to bring my outwear."
I stared at her clean white shirt. I shooked my head and said no. My red coat is the only outwear i had. But i borrowed you some hairclips because you were whining on how boring your hair was.
As if we ever meet so often and talk about daily life, you stole up some of my breads and ate it ungracefully. We sat and talked about her upcoming presentation during the journey.
We were walking towards different way once we were got off at the destination and standing in the middle of the station.
I pointed away and said, i have to go over there. So i might see you again next time.
I said, good luck for her presentation, althought i know she'll make it perfectly.
She was laughing nervously and do fingercrossing with her fingers. She stopped laughing, then going down into the escalator.
I was standing at the station balcony. From the down floor, she was giving me this super-wide waving with super-wide smile.
I waved back slowly.
Then i woke up.
That was an obnoxious dream. It is so disturbing. It was all so normal until it could scares me enough now.
But then, i discovered that perhaps i would like to meet you unconsciously.
Its not really me, but my mind.
Because you were some sort of a blessing.
And that was, i supposed,  just an another wave from you.