Sail

Sometimes,
I feel that i sails too far.
To be good
To behave
As people told me to do so

Every morning
I walk to the mirror.
What is see is the reflection
Of a living body
It still alive
But refused to live

Then from then, until now
I kept telling myself
Be nice
Love everyone
Then i will be safe

It makes me somehow
Missing all places that i've ever been
Missing me.

Sometimes
I just want to go out
And speak as much as i want
As free as i like

It makes me somehow
Searching for a place
Where finally i can turn my boat backwards
Where i can say to myself,
Enough is enough
Now is the time
To stop sailing

To paint the true colors
Just because its beautiful
To found yourself and be with it

But
I still
Can't stop sailing
Until i feel like
Letting my paddles drowning
And let myself go.