Wordless Heart

Do you know the greatest and the biggest sadness that your heart can feel?
When people said that you are so good with words. By i mean here that, literally, good with words. Wether you're talking or writing, those words are marvelous. You can create shapes, mood, story, based on words. Basically all you have to do is just pick and move your words from your thoughts, from your brain, to a paper, or a typewriter, or even a digital gadget or laptop that you have. Anything that can transfer your mind, so that not only you who can understand the meaning.
Did i said the greatest and biggest sadness that your heart can feel? Oh yeah--well, we are all human. Not forget to mention, we are also perfect and imperfect creatures, all whole in one. We are bad and good in one. We are the beast and the beauty, angels and devils in one.
We have thousand unexplainable feelings, that one of them comes so secretly, oftenly uninvited, and hard to let go once it comes.
And such feeling is simply called as 'love'.
And can you already guess what i meant with greatest and biggest sadness that your--okay okay, i change that one into--our hearts.
What is the greatest and biggest sadness that our hearts can feel?
The answer is quite simple: when love and words does not want to be connected.
Or in the other words, when people said that you are so good with words and you already produce a lots of nice stories, poems, philosophies, quotes which is some find it inspiring. Or it can help some others and lead them to happiness.
You are so happy when its happening. To know that your writing and words are worth to read for people, and the fact that they are willing to take the words and even spread it out. Its a huge honor for you.
But when love--and words are not meant to be connected, then you are done. Its like all your finger freezes and you can't write anything again, or you lost interest for all the musics that usually accompany you while you're writing and playing with words, or you feel that you are become numb, useless, and fall unguarded from highest cliff, to the deep darkness.
When you already build up your courage, and ready for your words, wether you choose to write or say it straight,
But its fails immediately.
Thats when, your words and the love are not meant to be.
Your beautiful, soft words cant reach the person you love. Eventough it is safe. It is honest and gentle, as white feathers which fly in the sky.
But still. The person you love does not trust the words.
Both ways, it really hurts. Not only for you, but for me also. That is the greatest and biggest sadness. That is the worst wound that scratches your heart a bit by a bit until it needs really long time to be heal again.
And it is also makes you wonder, that it might be because you don't use the words correctly. Or its not pure enough to be reachable.
But maybe, my dear, maybe,
The person you love is the one who actually cannot hear you.